Belief
It is hard to know what you can and can't believe.
There are so many things we take for granted and so many things we just accept as truth simply because it is what we are told to believe.
Lately I have been trying to find God for myself. I want to forget everything I have taken for granted and allow myself to be made new in my mind and in my heart.
I once heard a man say "we as humans are very good at taking the great mysteries of God and reducing them to mere fact".
I have so many beliefs and opinions about things. I want to live life with active conviction. I want to believe in things much bigger than myself, and know that truth exists and is worth laying down your life for.
There are so many people in the world who claim to know all the answers. I am not saying that careful study of Gods word and guidance by the spirit will not bring wisdom and understanding, because it will. I am saying that what you look for you will find. If you look hard enough you can find a way to justify any opinion.
I hope that we, as people who represent the body of Christ, can spend ourselves seeking the God of truth. Not a god that forms to fit our opinions. He is so much bigger than that. I hope we can allow our actions to point the world into an appreciation of this infinitely deep mystery that is the creator of the universe.
I want to challenge anyone who thinks they know the mind and the heart of God.
If you ever think you understand, think again.
I believe that we are to live according to truth
Sometimes I think it is better to cling to the mystery itself rather than conquer it.


Here is a beautiful exerpt from Job 38:
1 Then the LORD answered Job out of the storm. He said:
2 "Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge?
3 Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me.
4 "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation? Tell me, if you understand.
5 Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! Who stretched a measuring line across it?
6 On what were its footings set, or who laid its cornerstone-
7 while the morning stars sang together and all the angels [a] shouted for joy?
8 "Who shut up the sea behind doors when it burst forth from the womb,
9 when I made the clouds its garment and wrapped it in thick darkness,
10 when I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place,
11 when I said, 'This far you may come and no farther; here is where your proud waves halt'?
12 "Have you ever given orders to the morning, or shown the dawn its place,
13 that it might take the earth by the edges and shake the wicked out of it?
14 The earth takes shape like clay under a seal; its features stand out like those of a garment.
15 The wicked are denied their light, and their upraised arm is broken.
16 "Have you journeyed to the springs of the sea or walked in the recesses of the deep?
17 Have the gates of death been shown to you? Have you seen the gates of the shadow of death [b] ?
18 Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth? Tell me, if you know all this.
19 "What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside?
20 Can you take them to their places? Do you know the paths to their dwellings?
21 Surely you know, for you were already born! You have lived so many years!
22 "Have you entered the storehouses of the snow or seen the storehouses of the hail,
23 which I reserve for times of trouble, for days of war and battle?
24 What is the way to the place where the lightning is dispersed, or the place where the east winds are scattered over the earth?
25 Who cuts a channel for the torrents of rain, and a path for the thunderstorm,
26 to water a land where no man lives, a desert with no one in it,
27 to satisfy a desolate wasteland and make it sprout with grass?
28 Does the rain have a father? Who fathers the drops of dew?
29 From whose womb comes the ice? Who gives birth to the frost from the heavens
30 when the waters become hard as stone, when the surface of the deep is frozen?
31 "Can you bind the beautiful [c] Pleiades? Can you loose the cords of Orion?
32 Can you bring forth the constellations in their seasons [d] or lead out the Bear [e] with its cubs?
33 Do you know the laws of the heavens? Can you set up God's [f] dominion over the earth?
34 "Can you raise your voice to the clouds and cover yourself with a flood of water?
35 Do you send the lightning bolts on their way? Do they report to you, 'Here we are'?
36 Who endowed the heart [g] with wisdom or gave understanding to the mind [h] ?
37 Who has the wisdom to count the clouds? Who can tip over the water jars of the heavens
38 when the dust becomes hard and the clods of earth stick together?
39 "Do you hunt the prey for the lioness and satisfy the hunger of the lions
40 when they crouch in their dens or lie in wait in a thicket?
41 Who provides food for the raven when its young cry out to God and wander about for lack of food?